Enter my state of mind.

Dear Shaidelle Lazo Curioso

HAPPY 9 MONTHS !!!! <3

Wow i dont even know where to begin.. its just that the first time we met is actually the first picture on the top left and i cant help it but think about how much we changed. haha from me being so nervous to see you, to talk to you to hug you, to even hold your hand lol my life has changed since you been in my life. and i dont regret anything like when we argue its just a part in a relationship that everyone goes through and after our fights it brings us that much closer to each other. Having you as my BESTFRIEND and GIRLFRIEND is the best! you and me can last a lifetime together as long as we work together to stay with each other. because if you try ill try that much harder. because you know i give you my best and my all. The things i do for you and everything you do for me is just i feel like theres no relationship better then this. I appreciate you babe and i do respect you.

My life has been on top of the world and you got my life up there with out you my life would be as ordinary as everyone else lol you make my world light up you make everything creative and beautiful. you being alive makes this world BEAUTIFUL and i just cant be with out you, i cant picture my life not with you. 1 more year of highschool and since im transfering from secta to basic, a big down grade and not my home school, but hey im doing it because i know im gonna gone for awhile after highschool because im joining the Airforce but at least i made your dream and my dream come true spending my senior year with you. Seeing you everyday just makes me look forward going to school. lol i thought id never say that but haha if im going to school and i get to see you hey why not right? lol see babe i do love you and i try everything i can just to be with you. you are worth everything and everything so thats why i give 100% into this relationship. your the one i wanna be with, your the one i wanna spend my life with, your the one i wanna get on my knees for and say those special words and pull out that diamond ring. i know we still have many more years to go but im willing to have that life with you if you are. you are my one and only and i cant spend my life with any other girl but that one gorgeous and beautiful girl named Shaidelle Lazo Curioso<3 yeah i said the truth even though you disagree with me and always will it doesnt matter cause thats what i see everyday in my eyes your always beautiful.

You dont realize the impact you made on my life. i have so many words in my head and im trying to put them all down in here and its going crazy because they all just want to come out but im to slow to tranfer my words to the keyboard hahaha. but anyways people may try to break us but ill promise you this right now i wont let anyone get between us. i always keep my promises. cause your the only one i see and want. Notice when we are together i cant stop hugging you or kissing you. nothing else matters when were togther. people say im “whipped” im not, its just i respect you and im a gentlemen to you. i do things not cause i have to but i want to, for you, if i never cared for this relationship i wouldnt do the things i do, otherwise it would be a waste, why waste my time? see its not a waste of time its me and you building our relationship higher and higher because the skys the limit. remember when we used to talk before we dated id always say “i can make it happen” aren’t i right i do make things happen. i said that cause i knew you were a girl worth fighting for, a girl i can love with all my heart, a girl i can see i my future, a girl that i wanna stand on the alter with. do you also remember when you said you didnt believe in forever and always? haha im glad that now you do believe in that because our love made you believe in that. Love can make everything happen. well babe here we are 9 months later and how do i feel? i feel like the most happiest person! My feelings for you is always here and reminds me why we are together and tells me reasons why we will make it through life together. but yup 9 months were getting their babe only infinity more days, weeks, months, years, decades, generations. haha well babe i love you with all my heart and i hope you have a good 9 months :) mwuahh!

Love,

Matrix Tabion